Are they mutually exclusive?
My earlier addiction to blogging — the compulsive need — has diminished. I am not bored, I know that. I still love blogging the way I did when I entered blog addiction rehab and when I escaped it. The pangs, however, are weak enough that I can overcome. Perhaps having all the tools and gadgets to blog, weakens the blogging-spasms — you are constantly aware that you can post; and you let the post wait. That awareness creates complacence. Doesn’t quite make sense, but that’s how it is.
Many things are still bloggable, each conversation (or non-conversation) is a basis of a wonderful post that is waiting to be posted. All events, news, and thoughts are worth sharing, wrapped in your own flavour of cynicism, humour or anger. Somewhere, something holds you back.
Expression of identity and emotion seem to mutually exclusive to me, in the blog world at least.
Fellow bloggers who express their identity unabashedly seem less inclined to publish personal emotional expressions — at least explicitly. Fellow bloggers who create a separate web identity seem more inclined to share personal thoughts. I have written earlier about this — anonymity — and I continue to retain the belief I had then; nothing has changed. I don’t look down upon anonymous blogging. The thought is far from that.
The question that hovers, like blood-thirsty mosquitoes over your head on a warm Bombay evening, is whether expression of an identity in a public space is the end of expression of personal emotion in that public space.
Would I write any different if people didn’t know the reality of my existence in meatspace? Will my writing be any richer and complete? Does a separate identity in cyberspace protect you from the vulnerability that is a result of being and emotionally outspoken entity? Is it therapeutic, almost?